It starts today. I had to buy new jeans today, and when I truly looked at myself in the mirror, I wasn’t really all that happy. I’ve gained back a lot of the weight I’d worked so hard to lose last year. I’ve done this so many times before that it hurts to admit that. I’ve had a rough few months and I have not handled the stress well. I know better, and while things are certainly not out of hand, they are no longer where I was happy being. Admitting that takes a lot for me, at times. I like to be perfect, not human, but I’m letting you all into my little carefully-guarded secret: I AM human, and I HAVE failed myself in some respects.
In that case, it is time to refresh my weight loss challenges and goals. I challenged myself at the grocery store today, and I’m feeling pretty positive about kick-starting my newest campaign. I’m also determined to set up a new gym membership, because I really do miss it [and so does my body!]. I want to start looking and feeling as good as I did before, and I’m ready to let go of the excuses and stresses and get back to where I’m happiest.
Who’s ready to follow me in this new challenge?
I just took my first leap into the great, big unknown. I don’t take risks. It’s just never been my style. But I’ve played my life the safe way and I haven’t really gotten closer to my goals. I understand life is a journey, but at some point you realize you’ve become the person you want to be. Now you need to have things start happening for you. I’m at that point. I’m ready to see my dreams to fruition. I know exactly what I want, and I must admit that achieving those goals takes money. To secure my future, I’m going to have to take the risks necessary to produce those very necessary results. While it can feel like a scary thing, I’ve done it - I took the first step. And every step that follows after that will carry me ever closer. That will be the thing to truly focus on and keep my perspective focused on.
Any time I get afraid of the risks, or any time I feel like I can’t see the next step, all I need to do is take a deep breath, tap into that fearless part of me, and know that all of this is to change my life and help me achieve my bright, happy future. Now THAT is something worth taking every risk for.
A LOT has happened, as is the way with life. Some things are not the way I had planned, and many new opportunities may have opened up. The most important lesson I have learned over the past year [or since my last post] is how much value we can place in the ability to be fearless.
Fearlessness is such a valuable tool. It is easy to hide behind not only our fear of what others will think of us, but also how we view and treat ourselves. I’ve been a victim to these fears for far too long. I’ve spent a lot of my time riding the very highs of huge dreams and the very lows of questioning why I deserve them.
But no more. I know who I am, I know what I want, and I know that through my faith in God above, my fearlessness, my passion, and my conviction, I will be successful because I refuse to be anything less. Making that decision truly changed my life, and I hope that every single step I take forward from here on out becomes proof of that, and becomes an inspiration to others.